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All that city. You just couldn't see the end to it. The end? Please? You please just show me where it ends? It was all very fine on that gangway. And I was grand too, in my overcoat. I cut quite a figure. And I was getting off. Guaranteed. There was no problem. It wasn't what I saw that stopped me, Max. It was what I didn't see. You understand that? What I didn't see. In all that sprawling city there was everything except an end. There was no end. What I did not see was where the whole thing came to an end. The end of the world...
Take a piano. The keys begin, the keys end. You know there are eightyeight of them, nobody can tell you any different. They are not infinite. You are infinite. And on these keys the music that you can make is infinite. I like that. That I can live by.
You get me up on that gangway and you're rolling out in front of me a keyboard of millions of keys, millions and billions of keys that never end, and that's the truth, Max. That they never end. That keyboard is infinite. And if that keyboard is infinite, then on that keyboard there is no music you can play. You're sitting on the wrong bench. That's God's piano.
Christ! Did, did you see the streets? Just the streets… There were thousands of them! And how do you do it down there? How do you choose just one? One woman, one house, one piece of land to call your own, one landscape to look at, one way to die...
All that world is weighing down on me, you don't even know where it comes to an end, and aren't you ever just scared of breaking apart at the thought of it? The enormity of living it?
I was born on this ship, and the world passed me by, but two thousand people at a time. And there were wishes here, but never more than fit between prow and stern. You played out your happiness, but on a piano that was not infinite. I learned to live that way.
Land? Land is a ship too big for me. It's a woman too beautiful; it's a voyage too long, a perfume too strong. It's a music I don't know how to make. I could never get off this ship. At best, I can step off my life. After all, I don't exist for anyone. You're an exception, Max, you're the only one who knows I'm here. You're a minority, and you better get used to it. Forgive me, my friend, but I'm not getting off.
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所有那些城市，你就是無法看見盡頭。
盡頭？拜托！拜托你給我看它的盡頭在哪？當時，站在舷梯向外看還好。
我那時穿著大衣，感覺也很棒，覺得自己前途無量，然后我就要下船去。
放心！完全沒問題！可是，阻止了我的腳步的，并不是我所看見的東西，而是我所無法看見的那些東西。
你明白么？我看不見的那些。
在那個無限蔓延的城市里，什么東西都有，可惟獨沒有盡頭。
根本就沒有盡頭。
我看不見的是這一切的盡頭，世界的盡頭。
拿一部鋼琴來說，從琴鍵開始，又結束。
你知道鋼琴只有88個鍵，隨便什么琴都沒差。
它們不是無限的。
你才是無限的，在琴鍵上制作出的音樂是無限的。
我喜歡這樣，我活的慣。
你把我推到舷梯上然后扔給我一架有百萬琴鍵的鋼琴，百萬千萬的沒有盡頭的琴鍵，那是事實，max，它們沒有盡頭。
那鍵盤是無限延伸的。
然而如果琴鍵是無限的，那么在那架琴上就沒有你能彈奏的音樂，你坐錯了地方，那是上帝的鋼琴。
天啊！你……你看過那些街道嗎？僅僅是街道，就有上千條！你下去該怎么辦？你怎么選擇其中一條來走？怎么選擇“屬于你自己的”一個女人，一棟房子，一塊地，或者選擇一道風景欣賞，選擇一種方法死去。
那個世界好重，壓在我身上。
你甚至不知道它在哪里結束，你難道從來不為自己生活在無窮選擇里而害怕得快崩潰掉嗎？
我是在這艘船上出生的，整個世界跟我并肩而行，但是，行走一次只攜帶兩千人。
這里也有欲望，但不會虛妄到超出船頭和船尾。
你用鋼琴表達你的快樂，但音符不是無限的。
我已經習慣這么生活。
陸地？陸地對我來說是一艘太大的船，一個太漂亮的女人，一段太長的旅行，一瓶太刺鼻的香水，一種我不會創作的音樂。
我永遠無法放棄這艘船，不過幸好，我可以放棄我的生命。
反正沒人記得我存在過，而你是例外，max，你是唯一一個知道我在這里的人。
你是唯一一個，而且你最好習慣如此。
原諒我，朋友，我不會下船的。
